o well.haven been blogging for the past weeks due to prelim.
so i refrained myself from using the com.
well.today sort of marks my new beginning of a new life.
a life tt i gotta get used to being alone.
i dunnoe hw its gonna be lyk.bt i noe it will nt be good.
i noe i will feel lonely alone cos nobody can replace u in my hrt.
i made that painful decision, tt decision tt was difficult to be made.
one day we can just be so close, bt another we can just be distance apart.
u are the one tt i have ever loved so much. i dunnoe why.
honestly speaking u dun have the charm bt u just used to attract my attention so much with ur crapiness.hw i wish we cld crap lyk tt agn. hw i wish this breakup was nv my decision my thoughts.
i really dun mean to pick on joan.bt sorry, i dont like my stead (or rather considered my ex nw) to be so close to a girl tt i dun even noe.when u are down, angry, u turn to her. haix. u can say she is nt ur type or u are nt her type.seriously all these doesnt matter to me at all.bt it is always difficult to say. i nv tot we will be tgt, same for u too.thus, things shld nt be said too early.
haix.i feel the pain. bt i did this becos i felt lyk u needed a break frm me. i did this cos i dint want ur feelings for me to deteoriate further. Even now after 1 yr 3 mths and 16 days, my feelings are still as firm for u.it has nv dropped before.i dunnoe why isit lidat. bt tts my feelings.u claimed tt u dint lyk mi talking to guys.similarly, with the same concept, i dun lyk u to talk to her.tts it! its as simple as this! bt why do we make it lyk our msgs are hard to put across?!
haix.i dunnoe.things are the same.i really cannot feel anything frm ur hrt for me.haix.i dunnoe.
maybe this is just really the end.bt the memories are kept forever within me.movie marathons, playing pool maluing myself, the nights out, the nights at soccer field, the nights on national day, everyting, every single ting is remembered. i dunnoe for u.i noe i wun ask u back.i noe i wun ask u for a patch cos i m afraid of making the wrong decisions agn.cos i dunnoe ur feelings.tts all.i will just leave it, and hope to be able to move on.realised i have probably been neglecting my friends, i shall catch up with them! i m really sorry babes!! i have just been in my own world..haix.i love u all loads!! =)
